This year, I found myself wondering whether the candle should burn for the full twenty-four hours to memorialize a life that ended far too soon. The answer that satisfied me was that all of us are given a lifetime, no matter how long or how short. Richard never hesitated to live each day as though it might be his last. Of course we miss him, but we need to be glad for his life--not unhappy for its brevity.
Perhaps it was just because I still miss him, but as I waited by his grave for a while, it seemed as though Richard told me a humorous story:
"A man was frustrated and sad about his life, having lived many years without understanding his purpose. He pleaded with the Lord to give him a vision so he could know the meaning of his life. The Lord gave him a powerful vision, one that shattered his expectations and left him trembling with amazement. But when the man tried to explain his vision to other people, words failed him. Time and again, the same thing happened. Once again he became frustrated and sad. This time he pleaded with the Lord to tell him how to communicate his vision to others.
God chuckled and said, 'Remember? That's what I gave you a life for.'"
This year's Yahrzeit donation was a giveaway of Singing from Silence on Goodreads.